Too much fun homez~~

Today was a long day but so worth it. Just a chill get together of the buds celebrating Stephany So Sek-sy’s birthday. It’s been a long while since we’ve all gotten together. It was mostly because of school that we were apart but having everyone made everything so much more satisfying. There was no down time throughout the whole day we were together. Before the actual BBQ even started, we were already cracking up. Dancing in the car at the stop light and this random dude angrily looks at Stephany. What do we do? Laugh hysterically. He turns away and when the light turns green, he looks back and we’re still laughing.

When we got to the house, we were already filling up the water guns and wetting each other. Mmm~ Then the food came and it was so satisfying while watching Tropic Thunder and Superbad. Mmm~ Then while we were filling up water balloons, Stephany’s little 5 year old cousin starts getting all of us wet. MMM~ Wait…ew. Though we soaked her pretty hard too..Mmm~..oh my god. Nevermind.

The water balloon fight…omg it was so epic! It was our own little Hunger Games. Water Games? I don’t know. We were all in a circle and we rushed the center to get the balloons and it was just chaos. Wish it was a little longer, it was so intense we used everything up in like 6 minutes. I personally think I took it a little too seriously because I threw the balloons way too hard that I even reddened Timothy’s skin. I dodged most what people threw at me. Hehe, I’m just too pro.

After everyone changed and the orgy in the shower was over…yeah I said that, we went to play XBOX!! It’s like our trademark activity when we all hang out, some Xbox and Halo. We played between Dance Central and Dance Central 2 but 2’s disc is so fail. No one ever wants to dance, so I ended up going about 3-4 times in a row with Danielle just so we could get things started. Must say, Phillip is a pro dancer. I just get way too into the game that I end up being the only sweaty one -_-. Then we played Halo: Reach and as usual, Stephany carried the team, I did better though :D. It’s so funny seeing people new at it play, I felt so proud when Khannia or Tida got a kill.

In between everything, I kept getting Otter Pops. That stuff is addicting. Didn’t touch our Kool-Aid though. :(. Ironic since that’s our unofficial name.

After that we played our memorable game: Taboo. Best. Game. Ever. Things got really intense but really hilarious at the same time. It got so good, that everyone ended up staying way later than we expected. It was 2 A.M! haha. I swear I thought we would’ve just all slept over because it was so late.

All in all. Great People + Great Times + Laughter = Kool-Aid Krew

About 4 A.M but I just wanted to get this out.

I have to say, it’s never a bad time with them. I enjoy every second I spend with these people and every time I’m with them, I feel surrounded by love and friendship. I don’t consider too many people that I know as true friends. It’s probably because a lot of people I see are fake, cause unnecessary drama, or my personality just clashes with theirs. But not with them, not in the least. When I’m with them, I can’t help but smile and laugh, and most of the time, for no reason at all. These people are true friends, the type of people I can see as being a lifelong connection, the people that will always lift my spirits when I’m down, the group of friends that I see on the T.V shows.

I can honestly say that I love these people and I’m so fortunate to have them in my life. You know who you are.

Now that my Spring Break is about to end and I’m going back to school got me thinking about what I really am going to do with my life.

I’m so uncertain of my future. Now the future is by no means “certain” it will always be different from what is expected. But I feel so empty because I have no expectations, I have nothing decided now that will make some impact later on in  my life. I’m just stuck in this void where I don’t have a way, no sign pointing me on where I could go. How can I even go somewhere when I don’t even have a point to start from? I’m not even “lost” because to be lost means that I would have a path and that I strayed away from it and couldn’t find the way back. I having nothing to even be lost to. I’m just…here.

It’s so weird how the thought of a major can be so nerve wracking. That one decision gives me a rough layout on what my life might actually be. I know that what I pick won’t automatically mean that I’ll have a career in that particular field, but I’ll be learning about it and I’ll be using my precious time so I’ll have to find some use for it.

Thinking about this makes me realize that I don’t have a strong passion anymore. At first it was video games - I wanted to be a video game designer -, then it was computers - I wanted to be a computer engineer -, then it was breakdancing and physical activity - I wanted to be a dietician/ physical trainer -. If I could have life doing something I absolutely love, money would be secondary. To have the feeling of knowing what you love doing makes a living is enough to be satisfied. But I don’t know what I love doing.

I’m just scattered, I can’t fit myself into one thing and excel at it. I have nothing to fall back on because I really don’t have any special skills to be useful at anything. This is what honestly scares the living shit out of me, that I’m just a person that can’t contribute anything.

I’m just so…. I don’t even know anymore.

• 7 AM - 7 30 Small Oatmeal w/ Milk breakfast
• 8 AM - 9 AM Cardio
• 9 AM - 9 20 AM Cooldown Jog
• 9 30 AM - 11 AM Yoga
• 11 AM - 11 20 AM Shower
• 11 50 AM - ??? Movie times with some of the Koolaid Krew
• 7 PM - 8 15 PM Legs and Back workout & Abs workout
• 8 30 PM - 9 30 PM Rest/ Post workout meal/ Shower
• Anything after.

I guess this schedule all depends on whether I do Yoga tonight. I’m pretty lazy because I ate really heavy food. El Pollo Loco makes my stomach loco. Also, it’s almost 10 and I never workout at that time because it messes up with my sleeping schedule. Although, Yoga is mildly intense so I could probably do it as a late night workout so tomorrow I could cut it out. I doubt it. Freaking Chicken is still in my system, but I can’t hate chicken…I love chicken.

Do Yoga tonight or tomorrow….Any Suggestions?

All the things I really enjoy doing are the things that I should keep aside for stuff that are more important. Procrastination is a guilty, guilty, pleasure. If I could make a living out of doing it, I would be forever happy. But that isn’t how life works right? Only productive things I’m really doing right now is school and working out. I should really add stuff to that list. The things I could name off the top of my head that I procrastinate from are : random internet browsing, video games, and just laying on the bed. Not good. I mean, I could gain a lot of information off the internet, but it’s mostly spent on facebook, youtube, or comics. Weird….right now I’m on Tumblr….F@#$ !

I’m not failing any of my classes, but I’m making it harder than it should be. I do everything basically last minute with me stressing until the deadline when I could finish the assignment days ago. Though I still get good grades on them, lucky me. With my friends so far away, that should give me more incentive to focus on the things Ishouldfinish than do the things Iwantto finish…Maybe those two should be the same anyway. But yeah, this should be my top priority. Once I get it settled, I can have all the time in the world to have fun times with the people I care about. You know who you are.

Time to buckle down and destroy this semester. :D